Navy Veteran EX Air Traffic Controller Needs Assistance DD214 provided if needed

I am 38 years old and have a daughter who is ten. My sister passed away on 5/27/06 and I left my 40K job in Louisville to come to NC to help my parents. She had an asthma attack at 34 and took care of my parents on a daily basis. Unfortunately, in trying to help them(my mother has MS and my father is 100% service connected disabled from the Army). I have slipped into a deep depression, which I formally had when I got out of the Navy.(PTSD, Depersonalization, and Major Depression & Anxiety.) lost my job in October, because I could not cope or think. Im being honest in hopes someone will perhaps help me. I have been able to maintain a job and fend for my daughter and myself fairly well. It hasnt been all fun, but I am not lazy, I do have a lot of issues surrounding PTSD. I do see a doctor and take zoloft as perscribed. I do not do drugs and will submit to a drug test if anyone is willing to help. Here is my circumstances: My daughter lives with my aunt, because she is taken care of and goes to school clean and fed everyday. At this point, I cant do it, but I miss her very badly and want to get a home for both of us. She is very intellegent and reads on a 7th grade level in 4th grade. My car (1995 Mazda, I tried to keep bills down) and it has probably been towed, because it died on Christmas Eve in a parking lot and I have avoided going to get it. My family thinks Im working, but in truth I havent been able to and Im too embarassed to tell them. My father had a stroke and has seizures and I dont want to worry him or my mother. I worked in the Telecommunications industry in sales for a rep firm for products like computer cable, fiber, network testers and electrical industrial products for nine years. I want to work and Im not afraid of work, Im afraid I cant do a good job until I get better. I dont have a car to go to work and have no idea how I have managed to hide all of this from my family. I need a lifecoach, some money and some really good advice on how to get out of my jam and greif. I put off greiving for my sister, because everyone else seemed to need to greive. Now, I feel better and have some energy to do something to help myself. Sounds like a lot of drama, but it is the truth and it can all be verified. I have included a picture of myself and daughter. You can see I am not a slug and usually have taken care of myself.

Lisa, I am so sorry for the loss of your sister. I know your parents must be grieving. In North Carolina, there are some grief support groups in some area. Call your local hospital & speak to a Social Worker or you may go on internet to check for those in your city. Encourage your parents to become involved with these grief support groups. YOU CANNOT DO IT ALL. YOU CANNOT BE ALL THINGS TO ALL PEOPLE. Only God can do that. I speak from experience. I am the oldest child. Trying to be the 'Rock' for the family all the time will cause you problems. I am sure by now you already realize this. Financially speaking, your parents are bringing in good money. Your Dad at 100% disabled veteran, that check should run $2,500 or $2,600+ per month. Add to that the check from social security and any other retirements he may have. So, I'm only estimating, but Dad should be bringing in approx (give or take) $4,000 or MORE. I don't know if your mom gets disability or any retirement, but that is additional income to your Dad's. Is your Dad's disability physical or mental? If it is physical, then you can contact the Veteran's Administration. They offer an in-home worker to come in to sit/work with some patients. Call your local Social Services office, ask a caseworker or social worker there about resources in the community for getting a homecare for your mother. If they cannot help, you could again call a social worker at your local hospital; talk with your mother's doctor or contact the MS foundation for assistance. Now, Lisa, it is time to concentrate on YOU. You have your own issues to deal with. I know the help you receive through the VA is very limited & frustrating. You could contact your local mental heatlth center for assistance. I certainly wish you the very best.